Life Goes On
Dec. 29th, 2003 12:09 pmI arrived at work to find my inbox filled with Out of Office messages. My cubemate came in, but has gone off to her kickboxing class. It is hard for me to settle down to work. Even harder than usual, I mean.
Julie's memorial service went well as such things go, I suppose. My daughter was able to express and work through some of her grief, which is very good. For my part I am a bit numb. 9/11 affected my ability to deal with death on a retail scale. Walking home that day I realized that we are, all of us, locked in a struggle between life and death. Julie was on the side of life. When the pain of breathing was too great for her to continue the battle here, she was recalled from the front. From this front, at least.
Julie was black, and her family feels no doubt that her life was transformed, not ended, and no embarassment about expressing that conviction. There was none of that pathetic pretence one feels around so many white folks in the face of death and I was glad of that. I hope that Americans of African and mixed descent don't lose their basic orientation to reality, though I am not overhopeful.
Julie's memorial service went well as such things go, I suppose. My daughter was able to express and work through some of her grief, which is very good. For my part I am a bit numb. 9/11 affected my ability to deal with death on a retail scale. Walking home that day I realized that we are, all of us, locked in a struggle between life and death. Julie was on the side of life. When the pain of breathing was too great for her to continue the battle here, she was recalled from the front. From this front, at least.
Julie was black, and her family feels no doubt that her life was transformed, not ended, and no embarassment about expressing that conviction. There was none of that pathetic pretence one feels around so many white folks in the face of death and I was glad of that. I hope that Americans of African and mixed descent don't lose their basic orientation to reality, though I am not overhopeful.